Monday, December 30, 2002

MY fics are on Magical Theory!

I'm SO happy!

She gunned them down | 12:29 AM

Saturday, December 21, 2002

Okay. A few more fics and I'm gone. Note, however, that these things might be slightly overdue.

Random Kenyako for Eves. ^-^
Random RenixIris for Oneesama again. It's only right. Or just Silenci chapter three. Not sure yet.

Anyway, I was angsting last Wednesday and found myself typing away in Word about a little something I call "Petal Dance". For some obscure reason, while I was riding home in the bus, I found myself wanting to write gen!Sakura.

So it'll be a bit like Kit's "Tomoyo Cycle". Or not. I'm not sure yet, all I know is that I want to rip family, friends, and Syaoran away from Sakura and see what happens. Then I lose her in Tokyo.

Sounds like fun.

She gunned them down | 11:00 PM

Wednesday, December 18, 2002

I don't get it.

Explicitly, I have said that the "BA" arc ends with "TBD". Ends, meaning, finishes, severes, will not be continued.

Why do people want me to make Syaoran divorce Hanano and go running (or crawling, depends, really) back to Sakura, who, for all I really can analyze of her after the arc, doesn't want neither hide nor hair of him?

It's insane.

More than that, it's inane.

I am NOT putting Syaoran back together with Sakura. Not in the "BA" arc anyway. Jesus, aren't they tired of so much overrated S/S lately??

They completely missed the point!

She gunned them down | 9:47 PM

I don't get it.

Explicitly, I have said that the "BA" arc ends with "TBD". Ends, meaning, finishes, severes, will not be continued.

Why do people want me to make Syaoran divorce Hanano and go running (or crawling, depends, really) back to Sakura, who, for all I really can analyze of her after the arc, doesn't want neither hide nor hair of him?

It's insane.

More than that, it's inane.

I am NOT putting Syaoran back together with Sakura. Not in the "BA" arc anyway. Jesus, aren't they tired of so much overrated S/S lately??

They completely missed the point!

She gunned them down | 9:46 PM

Tuesday, December 17, 2002

I have posted the last piece to the "Beautiful Alone" arc: The Bridesmaid's Dillemma. This one's for Sakura-neesama, because I wub her to bitty bits.

The Slayer Network is UP AND RUNNING! All bad!fics, I suggest you take cover. The Pantheon takes no prisoners.

For invites to come join the Slayer Network, please email us at!

She gunned them down | 8:07 PM

Oh, I forgot to plug:

The Slayer Network, a joint fic review blog by me, Mai, and Harle. ^-^ It'll be open soon.

She gunned them down | 4:33 AM

In response (and I do hope that I shall never have to address this issue again) to you:

If you think that I put those comments on your snippet in order to only attain your ire, I'm afraid you're very mistaken. For one thing, I'm a busy girl with much to do. Also, I never take the time just to insult someone. I find it a big waste of internet time and money. Please don't think that very highly of yourself. In two very short words: "you wish".

Everything I have written in response to that snippet is nothing but rather constructive criticism, may it be written in a slightly bitchy way. You see, I'm not exactly all sweet and pretty. I have claws. It was not written in order to insult anyone, or to look down on anyone. It was written in the spirit of improvement, which as we all know now, what you sorely need.

As for the "who I really am": dear, I just happen to be a really critical reader. And some of my opinions may or may not be music to some people's ears. That's not my fault: I can dance just as well to any music simply given that it's not so bad. If I found your work good, I'd say so in the same breath I'd pronounce it bad if it is bad. You see, I'm honest. I tell it the way I see it, and if that offends you, then that's not my problem. It's yours.

I do not flaunt that I am a great writer. None of us do, because we believe there is a lot to learn and be learnt with us. We take criticism in the same breath we accept praise with: grace and thanks that someone actually took the time to read and analyze the gibberish we all come out with. However, it seems that you are one only fair-weather friend: you are only there when you are praised and reject anything bad said to you.

In fanfic, or writing in general, there are no levels of hierarchy, no one more superior than the other. We are all only writers who go through the same cycles and the same frustrations and the same criticisms. None of us better than the other. That you must remember.

As for my attitude: darling, I quite think a lot of people like me the way I am. In fact, people who are far more significant to me in levels that you weill never even hope to attain. In short, I don't mind those who do not matter, because those who DO matter do not mind.

Plagiarism is still a big thing. I worked long and hard for Masquerade not to have it stolen by one writer who wants a fast road to fame. There's a thick line between freedom and outright thievery. That's why I hate people weho copy off my work, because it's mine, I worked hard for it. To plagiarize in such a manner that girl did; e.g. copying off the fic entirely, is a violation of my rights to my work and my ideas. There is no room for understanding here. I will only take what is rightfully mine. Do you quite understand? What if something you worked very long and hard for was stolen from under your nose and then paraded as someone else's? I doubt you'll still be understanding then. I don't care if I hurt her. Do you know why? Because she stole something, and robbery demands punishment. Justly so.

So, what if she copied your work? It's not up to you to sue her.

Of course it is. It was my work she stole, and robbery demands justice. Do you quite understand? Robbery.

Pride: I think you're quite mistaken. I am not one to boast of how great I am. That is because I know of people far greater than I. If you want a pompous windbag, dear, look in the mirror. The way you reacted attests to this.

Tell me honestly, do you still hate me because of what I did that was NOT supposed to be for you to butt in? It's not your problem and we don't need you to butt in, you know. Mind your own business, girls. You won't suffer from it if you won't mind.

Dear, I do not hate you. In fact, I quite remember that I said that I would protect you should you have been telling the truth. All I did ask from you was to stay away from me, which you summately ignored. I had to go into your business with Elle and Harle because Harle is part of the Pantheon. Besides that, I have summately tried to ignore you for all I have been worth yet you still seem to find ways to annoy either me, the other Pantheon members, or my imouto-tachi. Word of which gets to me. I have tried time and again to pacify my imoutos' wrath against you. It is you, in fact, that we do not need.

Ignorance is bliss. Yet knowledge lends you power. Those who refuse to be enlightened are fools and shall never amount to anything because they refuse to understand. That is what you are. Close your eyes and live in ignorance, if it shall please you. It matters not to me, or to Maia, or to anyone else.

Maybe it should matter to yourself.

We were given the freedom because we were thought to be beings who could use so wisely.

Maia, Harle and I only exist in order to lend order.

We do not look down for there is nothing to look down on. We are all only the same.

Do not ever call me "ate". You do not deserve to call me your sister. You are nothing to me. You are not significant enough to be hated.

She gunned them down | 3:46 AM

Monday, December 16, 2002

I have uploaded Masque 11 and Still 2. Goes to show I'm still sort of productive nevertheless.

She gunned them down | 10:31 PM


I was all set to upload Masquerade 11 and Still 2. But then I left the disk at home (I have no net to speak of at home. My life SUCKS) so... tomorrow, then.

I haven't written anything new... though I'd love it if I could actually write something down. It's not exactly procrastination, just uninspiration, and I'd really hate to write just because I want to and not because I have anything of significance to write about. It's something to do with life lately-- I'm kind of involved in a mess already that it's kind of painful to create more messes for other characters.

Argh. I am SO sorry.

She gunned them down | 1:21 AM

Friday, December 13, 2002

Iitai. I know, and I keep telling myself not to stumble into the FF.n CCS section. Now my head hurts and I want a cheese stick. Harle's not around.

No, Mee, darling, I only know how to cheat this stuff. Y'know, take one prefab template from somewhere and then remodel. HTML's easy if you know what to look for and how to look for it. I learned all this from scratch! You're better. I wub your layouts. "Endless Night" so pretty. (HEEY. Where's my "Blanche Neige"?)

Anyway, been working on main log all morning. My eyes actually hurt now. But, bah. Who cares? I kinda like the template there, now. Not bad. Not bad at all.

Also been working on other people's blog. Yes, that's a prefab I tweaked around with. Pretty. ^-^

Oh. Almost finished with second part of Christmas present bonanza. There's S-S culmination (for oneesama), there's next Until You Do chapter (for you, imouto), there's ExT sequelishness (for Kyte).

Other random ExT coming in third installment for Chelle, Circe, and Linda.

She gunned them down | 7:25 PM

Thursday, December 12, 2002

In hopes of inspiring me to write more Draco/Ginny, I make layout. Too yellow, I suppose, but heck, what goes well with green and red if not orange? Anyway. She has my D/G notebook. You read the stuff, didn't you, Maia? That's why you're making me fanart! Gehhhh.

Have one hour to social blog-hop. Be back later.

She gunned them down | 8:10 PM

Okay, I'm DONE! How is it? Errors? Email.

She gunned them down | 5:57 PM

Wednesday, December 11, 2002

Sequel to "Piece of Heaven" will be entitled "The Bridesmaid's Dillemma" and if you've followed the saga you will have a hint of what's to transpire. As for that whoever who reviewed "Piece..." with something like making two endings: the predictable S-S and one S+S just to stave off the masses... I quite think not. It's kind of too late into the plot to actually make Syaoran throw away his engagement and run screaming after Sakura on his knees. It's just too, shall I say, stupid to even think it over. The whole point was to break them up and it STAYS that way or I'll be damned. Heh.

I haven't been ficcing in a long time. I've been under some serious stuff. Sorry. Anyway, gift-fics will arrive when due. ^-^

She gunned them down | 12:45 AM

Tuesday, December 10, 2002

Yes, Sophie. I'm still working on Pantheon. ^-^

And Varon, it's because I've switched fandoms. I go for Eva fic now. ^-^

She gunned them down | 1:24 AM

Monday, December 09, 2002

I have uploaded one more CCS fic here for Mee love specifically. *hugs*

She gunned them down | 3:34 AM

Saturday, December 07, 2002

Before people start rejoicing: these things are only presents, have been finished for months just waiting for upload, and are in no way the signaling of my return to CCS fandom. That aside, here they be, as the first part of the Christmas present bonanza:

Masquerade chapter 10


Nocturne chapter 3.

I'm about ready to change layouts again, but that's only because I was at Alli's yesterday and I tweaked around with her Photoshop (God, I LOVE Photoshop) and made this all cute Christamas-y layout (but that was just a side effect 'cause it features Draco and Ginny from the movie and Draco is green for Slytherin and Ginny is red for Gryffindor so there). This is obsessive. VERY obsessive.

Gah. Must wait 'til mid-December. I kind of still like Asuka up there. Kind of. Funny how I can shift paradigms so easily. Only a few weeks ago I was squealing Evangelion; now all I talk about is Potter, Weasley, and Malfoy. All the time. I'm surprised Harle and Maia aren't yet tired of me; they're LOTR fangirls.

On LOTR fangirlism; Harle's been after me for quite a while to try and immerse myself in elves, elves, and more elves. I have refused her every time. I can take Harle's fanfics; she is, after all, way less confusing than Tolkien, but reading Tolkien himself is something very close to an abomination for me. I never had much taste for Ye Olde English, and the way Tolkien delivers is much too deep for my taste. Harle, in a fit of frustration, once yelled, "What am I going to do to make you convert to LOTR?!"

Well, nothing, really. I know for a fact that I will NEVER ever read Tolkien. Something about the prose being too old and musty that I feel as if I'm reading a bloody textbook. Something about the characters, elves specifically, being too perfect. Something about it not being Harry Potter? (so sue me. I have this insane urge to reject LOTR because I'm a Potter freak.)

In any case, sorry, Harle!

Oh, for people who want to see my Draco/Gin Photoshop wankering: here.

^-^ I'm sorta proud of it, even if it's a bit simplistic.

She gunned them down | 12:21 AM

Wednesday, December 04, 2002

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Yep, hell yeah, Alli! *high-fives all 'round*

I'm declaring Alli as my official partner and beta for everything Draco/Ginny I pull out. You get to that when you listen to me go on and on about the finer points of Draco and Ginny at three in the morning. You get to that when you SMS for hours thinking about the best middle name for Draco. (We decided on Louis, because Thomas was too Riddle) You get to that when you support me when I feel like falling down. You get to that when I write D/G fic for you almost everyday. Let's hear it for Alli, yay! *claps*

Well, in lieu of everybody's wuberly advice, I'm not writing Draco like Cassie!Draco. I don't think I can manage that kind of Draco even if I tried and besides, I wouldn't even so. That's like... plagiarism. (Plagiarism is a touchy subject herein. I'm stopping now.)

After much deliberation (and self-doubt galore), I decided to just be straight about it and create Ekai!Draco. I've come to realize that I've been thinking too hard on other people's Draco preferences (which is not at all a bad thing but let me finish a second) and was trying to mold my writing into something they would like.

When I was in McDonald's with Charlie and the Pantheon yesterday, She said something about writing a sequel for her uber LOTR fic. For the fans.

Remembering something that Chelle told Circe some time ago, I point-blank told Harle: "Who are you really writing for, them, or us?"

I forgot that I was supposed to be writing for myself here, and the people who matter to me. And I know somewhere deep in my heart that the the people who matter to me will most certainly understand.


And if there's anything I do wrong on, or anything I'm inconsistent with, those people will most certainly tell me. It's because I believe in what I told her some time ago: they're not just good writers. They're my friends.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."

--Dr. Seuss


She gunned them down | 3:39 AM

Sunday, December 01, 2002

Too much Cassandra Claire can kill you. It will kill you when you're reading fic (and big fic it is) when you're supposed to be psychoanalyzing the Bible, and memorizing the "Our Father" in original Greek. Oh, I bleed. I do. Alli, this is your fault. I hold you personally responsible for any and all Draco fixation. Um, and Felton, too. He should be outlawed.

*gets thwapped in the head by big, big pan*

I've been having almost-nightly discussions with her about canon!Draco and I kind of think it's HARD to write him. She's right, he's so 1d. If so, then, have we authors any license to somehow broaden his small horizons? This is spawn from just really, really, wanting to write angst!Draco. Which I've already done, considering. Draco/Ginny is already, essentially, noncanon. so, um.

Can I create angst!Draco? I've kinda done it already...

Anyway, Jae, if you've got books on British boarding school boys, might I have some of the titles? My England English is mostly Ralph Fiennes and Hugh Grant. Yes, my horizons are very, very narrow. I'm not an artiste artist. I wing it most of the time. I've been reading Harpy's Draco. Whoa. That's a really great Draco.

I hope my fic log's not becoming a bad case of raving on Malfoy/Weasley. >.<

I even feel sort of guilty now just looking at the 'Pantheon' folder in my PC. I am SO sorry, Charlie D. Really I am. But Eva fics aren't moving no matter how I pokery.

She gunned them down | 7:39 PM

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